Dear 2016, it's really hard to look back at a year that feels like it was over before it begun. This year literally rolled past in such a blur that I swear I feel a tiny bit motion sick. Like I ate a hot dog then went on a roller coaster... Which is not the smartest of moves FYI.
I feel as though I want to say its been bloody awful, because that's what the general consensus is. The world lost some huge idols this year and made some very interesting decisions. It maybe, possibly hasn't been the year we were all hoping for and all I am going to say is it isn't the way I wanted things to happen. *cough* brexit *cough*
However, personally, it has been a good year. I don't want to say its been absolutely fantastic, because well, nothing is perfect. But it has been good. For the first time in a long time I can happily say that there hasn't been anything massively negative about my year. My family are healthy and happy and that is something I hope continues well into 2017.
My relationship is as strong as ever, and my friendships are good. I feel like this is a really boring start to this post, but it's honest. And it is a much welcomed change after the last few years.
Someone told me years ago that you learn the most about yourself in the years between 18 and 21, and although I don't know if its true, I do feel like I have learnt a lot about myself. I am definitely more self aware than I have ever been. I now know that my actions have consequences, I also know that you have to have bad times to appreciate the good and finally that not everyone has a plan.
"People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime."
I have particularly learnt a lot about friendships this year. Its interesting because I grew up with the view that all friendships had to be sacred and meaningful, and whilst I still believe it is vital to have those friends that you can always count on, I also know that it is equally important to have people in your life to enjoy the moment with. Not all friendships will last forever and involve knowing every last detail with each other. That's perfectly okay. It doesn't mean they are any less special. Great memories can be shared with those who left your life as quickly as they entered it.
2016 also taught me to believe in myself a little bit. This lesson came to me in a number of ways. From the amount of people in my non-blog life who told me they read my blog and enjoy it, when I didn't even think they knew about it, to getting a job I thought was way out of my reach. I continuously proved to myself that if I work hard and put myself out there a little bit, then I can do what I want. I really struggle with my self-believe but I am learning that sometimes you have to be in it to win it. Aim high and all that jazz.
"You can destroy your now by worrying about tomorrow"
For 2017 I am looking forward to spending a bit more time on myself. I have become very aware that I hate being the girl who lets anyone down and that's something I need to work on. I want to open myself up to more opportunities. I have mentioned that I am a worrier countless times on my blog, and in 2017 I really want to work on the fact that no one cares nearly half as much as I think they do. The people closest to me just want to see me be happy, and will support me no matter what I do. Of course I am going to make mistakes but that's what happens, there's no need to let the fear of that stop me embracing opportunities.
"The most wasted of all days is one without laughter"
Finally, I just want to have fun. I have spend too much time in a little tiny bubble, and time is going past so quickly that if I don't let myself have fun soon then I will regret it. Cringe-y AF but, you only live once. And I am twenty one years old for crying out loud. Where is the prosecco?!
So twenty seventeen, what are you bringing?