I used to think that good things just happened.
I grew up being relatively good at most things. Athletics and sports were never really my thing, but I am fairly academic and incredibly sociable. I hate to sound arrogant, but school was kind of a breeze for me. Which is great, and all jolly good whilst you're there but what it didn't set me up for is the times when things just don't go my way.
Recently, I learnt how to drive. I say recently loosely because it took me just under a year, with long weekly lessons, and three tests in total. Now I know that isn't too bad, and there are plenty of people that take longer and take more tests - and that is absolutely fine, but this is about my experience.
Since I have grown up, and throughout my adult life so far, not really dealing with failure of any kind I took my driving hard. Right from the start I struggled, I was too nervous, too cautious and just not a natural. I found driving difficult.
After test one, I cried. I cried a lot. It felt as though I had let myself down, not to mention my instructor and all of the people who I relied on for lifts. The thoughts of just giving up came but luckily everyone around me were very supportive. I took the second test much better, and the third time I passed!
It taught me how flippant I am. As soon as I failed, my mind just wanted to stop and give up. It was like I was telling myself, 'Harrie thats not your thing, why bother?' and those thoughts were awful! I didn't cope with the failure well and I worry that if I didn't have such a good support system, I would have just given up.
But what I am trying to say, well write, is that not everything comes naturally. Yes, you will be better at some things than others but sometimes you have to work really hard, harder than the people you see around you, because it just isn't natural. But it doesn't mean that you can't do it, you can. It just requires a little more determination.
In the end, the result feels better. Like you deserve it more. It feels like a reward. I am so proud that I didn't give up and I really feel like I could deal with situation like this much better in the future.
Just because you failed at something doesn't mean its the end, it just means you have take a different route. Try again.