Juggling life whilst being frustratingly lazy...
I like to plan, and I have a lot of goals. That is no surprise to anyone. I am an optimist and therefor set myself huge aspirations in life. To try and achieve these goals and aspirations, I take on quite a lot. I work full time, do a degree on the side, do my blog and try to maintain somewhat of a healthy relationship and social life. When I tell people about all of my life activities, I normally get questions like 'how do you fit it all in?', to which I usually reply.. I just do.
However, truth be told, it's like I'm a duck. Calm on the surface, but panicking like hell underneath. I leave everything until the last minutes then have a huge flap that I don't have time to get everything done. But the truth of the matter is, I am extremely lazy. I can procrastinate for England.
Whilst I am writing this post, I have been sat on my laptop for almost 4 hours doing sweet FA. Like, why?! I know that in a few days when I have a 3,500 word assignment due and I am packing my bags for a weekend away, I will be turning my hair a questionable shade of grey from the stress.
I like to have my own time, I feel like the only way I can ever be productive is if I have had some time to unwind, or else I will be so stressed. I need to have time to play on social media, and have a nap when I want just so my mind can re-charge.
However, I have no limits. I don't sit for an hour and then think, "right, enough is enough, lets do this" and that is so frustrating. It is something I am really trying to work on. I am trying to make myself manageable lists and goals for the day. For example, today I knew I wanted to get this blog post plus one other written and scheduled, and I am totally on track. However, if I sat down and said, Harriet today you must wrote 8 blog posts, take photos, schedule them and do all you're uni work, chances are I wouldn't do any of it.
There is no real point or thread to this blog post, other than I think that understanding yourself and how you work is really key. I am obsessed with reading and watching articles about organisation, but I am just never going to be one of those people that can just get shit done. I need to work at my own pace, and that's fine.
Life is a balancing act, after all.